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A loss of Faith

So, I often times get inspired and I never really write immediately, but we are going to write today. I realized something, and I wanted to share it with whoever will listen. I don't know about y'all, but I think 2018 was one of the hardest years for me. It was very rough emotionally and just seemed like it was one thing after the other. Chaos! I was continuously stressing about something. Going into 2018, I believe set the tone for my year. I can honestly say that I attribute that to my thinking, by victimizing myself.

I lost faith in God, and it showed in my life. I stopped praying, just straight up confused and getting beat up by life. It says in the word of God that it is impossible to please God without faith. Even though you may not be operating in faith, it doesn't stop God from being GOOD. He's still going to make sure you're taken care of, you'll never really lack anything. I wholeheartedly believe that the way your life is going is connected to your thinking and what you let come out of your mouth.

I always knew that you could speak things into existence, but I would just let all this garbage come out of my mouth, probably because I was dwelling on the negative aspects of my life. It wasn't until after Thanksgiving that my faith was recharged. I was talking to one of my aunts, and her exact words were, " Either you're going to believe in God, or you're not." To me, this hit me so hard, because I believed all these lies about my life and I am wallowing in every one of those lies day by day. I had to remember that God is a God of miracles and he gave us dominion and power here on earth. I also had to recall God's favor on my life. We can't forget that God gave us specific tools to create the life we want, sprinkled with his favor.

I want a life set on FIRE!! Our life is not supposed to normal by any means. The people of God are not supposed to be at the bottom of the barrel. We are supposed to be the absolute best considering who we serve. That's the God we chose to serve. 2019 will be an amazing year, I can tell you that!

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